GUILT!
That’s what I feel now when I miss a workout or eat too much. For me the best way to repent is through exercise.

"Take that you fat bastard with no self discipline, no self control. I'll teach me to eat 10 Christmas cookies and miss a workout. I must inflicted torment and pain upon myself at the gym."

Today I totaled the calories I burned during my workout. (I never do this because I really don't care and fail to see the relevance in relation to the big picture) I half to admit I was surprised, "1300 calories" That’s a large extra cheese Pizza all to myself or 2 dozen Christmas cookies with Homo milk! Or about a ton of Carrot Sticks!
I Started to look at wet suits for the Milton Triathlon in June (you up for this one Ross?) because the water is most likely going to be quite cold. But how can I buy one if I continue to loose weight between now and then? I guess I should wait until mid May. They look so cool I can't wait to try a swim in one.
Exercise
Bike 15 Miles (American Equipment has no metric)
Run 6km (I had tons of air left but I lost my legs, Shouldn't have ran in those shitty shoes on Monday)
Weights (The Gravitron 2000 returns with a vengeance) Full Program
Diet
Breakfast
Corn Flakes Skim Milk, Whole Wheat Toast Coffee
Snack
None
Lunch
Power aid (a must for long workouts)
Snack
V8
Dinner
Large Cheese and veggie omelet with 2 whole wheat toast and 5 pieces of bacon
Snack
6 Cookies and Popcorn

Today I went to the "Y" Knowing I was going to have a meeting about the "fitness event" but I took my gym bag anyway thinking I could still fit my swim in. Not the case, we had a great meeting about the event and seemed to accomplish a lot. It looks like it will be held in May not April and will also have a couple of other components thrown into the fray. It should be interesting to see how it shapes up over the coming months. I am looking forward to the next planning/organizing meeting and also some of the Swim/bike/run workshops that are going to be conducted in the New Year.
I will have to work out extra hard tomorrow to make up for today's miss. Not to mention the fact that friend Ross gave me a call to let me know he is running now and did a 5km (almost) If that’s not a push for me I don't know what is. (Can’t let Ross win :)
Exercise
None
Diet
Breakfast
Cereal skim milk
Snack
None
Lunch
Mr. Noodle Soup
Snack
None
Dinner
Taco's
Snack
Christmas Cookies (Its like Halloween all over again ahhhh)

It happens about this time of year, every year, like clockwork. I think its because there is so much focus on family and tradition. Or it could be because of the Wind River Sweatshirts she got everyone, that last Christmas we were all together. It still hangs in my closet as a silent reminder of Christmas past. Its strange how we go through life taking things for granted like the pennies in our pockets. Who cares where they go or if we loose a few along the way there will always be more, wont there? I can still remember the Trifle she use to make every year for Christmas dinner, how there use to be the heady aroma of rum in it until she stopped drinking. The tree with ancient ornaments hanging from the branches. Or the handmade ones she would give us every year for our own tree. I can't help but be bewildered at how fast our annual meeting place vanished. Its like she took it with her. Now we all go our separate ways, begin our own new traditions, spend more time being fathers, husbands, friends and no more time being sons. I can't help but take comfort in the thought I can teach my children not to take for granted the pennies in their pockets.